I cant.

Take the pain and force it down..
Take the doubt and run away
Do it all again..
Over and over until you bleed
Dont pretend you care
When its convenient
Dont walk away from me
while i stand here crying
There was nothing left for me here
You painted a picture for me
Now I cant look away
You created a warmth that felt so good
Now I dont want to be cold
On and On I do it all again
I stumble and falter all over again
You dont Fade away
But you dont shine anymore
Watch me look at you with confusion
I dont deserve to know what you are
I dont want to cry
I am running out of time
I sat back and looked at my life today
I seen the loose ends..I want to tie them in knots
I want to be free of my needs
Free of my addictions
I dont want to Need
I dont want to crave what you are
I cant let this take me away
But the voice in my head tells me to run
before it kills me
When will i just listen
For once will i fucking do it right
Will i do it all over again
What has caused me to be so leary
This life is not for me
This dream is only meant for sleep
If you need someone to comfort you
I can no longer be there
I cant be by your side
Where do you expect me to smile as you cry
But its ok, I should make it through
Its gonna hurt whether its me or you
Wake me.. you cant your far away
Stop me.. you cant.. theres nothing left to say
Nothing in common except for pain
Just a fire faded away
Wasting another day
your not close enough to see into my eyes
To remind you of what will never be
but your close enough to keep hurting me
I sang into your ear as you slept
only to tell you im here for you if your sleep breaks
To comfort you.. because i know your life is not easy
You have so much on your mind
But you have no time to see what you are doing